Bucket List

What can I say, Brenden inspired me.

This is a list of things that i have wanted to do, and have felt that God has called me to do in my lifetime.  I will add to it or edit it when new things asrise or when i complete one.  Ok, in no particular order, besides the first one, here's my list:

1. Become the Christian that i know He wants me to be.  Like really listen to him and not be so selfish.
   
2. Learn Korean.  Not just the hello or goodbye bits.  I mean i want to be able to converse with a Native speaker and not sound like a 5 year old.
3. in respect to the last one, i want to go to South Korea.  It's an amazing country with AMAZING people.  I just hope that i find out how and why God is telling me to go.
4. Graduate with at least a 3.0 GPA.  This is a huge one.  I'll have to really buckle down on my studying.  I've been a slacker up until now.
5. Become a teacher.  Ok, i know that once i graduate i will be a certified teacher.  But i mean that i want to get a good teaching job.  I want to work in a low SES school ( Socioeconomic Status)  because all my life, since i was a kid myself, I knew that i was supposed to work with underprivileged kids.   Be Jesus for them.
6. Eat right.  No dieting, no binge eating.   Eating what i want, but in the correct manner that i'm not a blimp by the time i'm 30.
7. On the same note, start exercising regularly.  It always feels awesome, why do i delay?
8. Read the entire Bible. Seriously, do you know how many atheists have done this and how little Christians have?   It's sickening.   I'm sickened by myself.
   

These next few aren't necessarily God called, but are just things that sound awesome:

1. Go to Paris
2. Go to Ireland
3. Go to Germany
4. hmmm, i'm developing a trend.  Maybe I should just say that i'd like to go on a tour of Europe...
5. Ride in a Hot Air balloon.
6. Learn how to Swim.  I'm 21 years old people, and if i were knocked overboard i would drown - even in calm waters... dumb.  
7. Fall in Love.  i've never been in love.  I hear its grand.
   
8. Get Married.  this one could go in the first part, but I don't think i have to be married to be following God.  But I reallllly want to be married.  Preferably to a man that is tall, sings, wants to go to the mission field, loves God, and
   
9. Have kids.  I want to adopt.  I may or may not want to give birth. But i do want kids. 
   
10. Go scuba diving (gotta learn to swim first.)
11. Climb a mountain.  Doesn't have to be a huge one.  But I love hiking.  So I think it would be awesome to learn to climb.

Ok, that's all for now.  Oh I can't wait!

Merry Christmas

I hope your holiday is awesome!  I'm happy, very happy.  So I want you to be happy too!

Out of our own will.

So, recently I've been reading C. S. Lewis' Space Trilogy.  It is absolutely AMAZING.  One part of the second book got me thinking.  The quote as follows: 

"'Oh, brave Piebald," said the Green Lady, "this is the best you have said yet.  This makes me older far: yet it does not feel like the oldness this other is giving me.  Oh, how well I see it!  We cannot walk out of Maleldil's will: but He has given us a way to walk out of our will.  And there could be no such way except a command like this.  Out of our own will.  It is like passing out through the world's roof into deep heaven.  All beyond is Love Himself. ..."

I want to talk about a couple of things that stand out to me.  

If you have read this book, you are aware of the significance of the Green Lady's words when she says "this makes me older far: yet it does not feel like the oldness this other is giving me."  She is aware of the strangeness that 'the other' is emitting.  She understands something is awry.   (If you have not read the book: nanny nanny boo boo).  This makes me believe that we will know when we are being tempted, we can feel it.  It doesn't just sneak in there and then all the sudden we turn around and it's there.   The hints are there, you just have to pay attention.

But that isn't the most important thing.  What gets to me the most is that we cannot walk out of God's will.  His will is strong.  What you or I do will not change completely what God wants to happen.  It may change the order, or the timing, but His Will will always happen.  Also, later Ransom goes on to say when talking about how good can come from the bad:

"Of course good came from it.  Is Maleldil a beast that we can stop His path, or a leaf that we can twist His shape?  Whatever you do, He will make good of it.  But not the good he had prepared for you if you had obeyed Him.  That is lost for ever. ..."

"Out of our own will"

Aren't Lewis' words just beautiful?  I think so!

Glossary or explanation:

Perelandra-  this is the name given for the planet that we call Venus.

Maleldil-  This is the character in the Space trilogy that represents God.  Or Jesus.  Anytime you see this name, just think of God.

 

world's roof-  in this story Perelandra is covered by a very dense atmosphere.  This atmosphere is so dense, you cannot see the stars from land.  This atmosphere blocks a very large percent of the sun away leaving the planet somewhat dim.  

Deep Heaven-  In the trilogy, outer space is not just empty space, it is thought to be Heaven.

 

I'll leave you with one thought.   

When you feel like you are walking out of God's will, step aside and retrace your steps.  Find the way to step out of your own will.  It is only then that you will get the good that God intended to begin with.

Spring Break, messy rooms, and end of the semester...

Everything is happening so fast!  This is my third year of college and i have two left!  It seems like i only just came to SNU.  There isn't much left of this semester!  There is less than two months!  I use exclamation points to often!!!!   hehe.  I suppose i'm just very emphatic...    I just had an awesome Spring Break!!  I went to Houston with 7 of my friends.   We went to NASA, the beach, the aquarium, the mall.  Had some great fun!!

 on our way to NASA.  I was playing with Cori's pretty sun hat.

  wooot! The building housing the Saturn V  rocket.  

 all of us (minus me) in front of one of the eight thrusters of the rocket.  It was a HUGE rocket by the way....

I love my friends!

I would love to sleep but...

i slept until 1 this afternoon.

i am addicted to my computer.

i am not.

All of these things are true.  

What i'm pretty sure of is that i need to get out of this cycle.  Soon!